- "Making choices can feel lonely." Yes. I keep expecting hard choices to feel un-lonely and/or feel good. This expectation is probably a big reason why I put off hard and meaningful decisions.
- "I stayed in my job." What if you did that AND could still travel? What if instead of traveling for 2 months straight, you could travel a total of 2 months spread over 10 months? And do so while still performing in your job?
To that second question, I realized I didn’t want to travel at all. That traveling made me feel temporarily good because it got me outside of my day to day and I could ignore my reality. The happier I am in my life, the less I want to travel. And now, I want to be home, nest and be present while taking intentional, longer trips.
“choosing means risking…We don’t build trust all at once. We build it with small decisions. In the promises we keep to ourselves. Everytime we choose ourselves….” So beautifully said. 🤍
Thank you for such an authentic share of your journey. ✨
& the Root Meditation was so grounding! I am in awe of you using your voice in so many different ways, literally and metaphorically in this space. YES YES YES!
Where do I begin? This piece was so rich and full of SO many nuggets of wisdom. You languaged so many experiences for me, and it's truly finding me at the perfect moment.
Pieces that resonated: commitment bringing up fear of making the wrong choice, the insidious ways we try to regain control, the habits we use to distract, the WHOLE piece about BLD, confusion masking fear, and the temptation to have someone(thing) else make choices.
Also, such an important reminder that courageous choices are not made without fear. "I made these decisions from trust and terror."
This one stopped me in my tracks: "I felt I had to exhaust every angle of a problem: try harder, push more, prove myself. Because I had to be right; if I’m not right then I’m wrong. And if that’s true, then I was the problem."
"Wherever you go, your problems come too." feels like the sister reminder of "No matter where I am, I'm me".
- "Making choices can feel lonely." Yes. I keep expecting hard choices to feel un-lonely and/or feel good. This expectation is probably a big reason why I put off hard and meaningful decisions.
- "I stayed in my job." What if you did that AND could still travel? What if instead of traveling for 2 months straight, you could travel a total of 2 months spread over 10 months? And do so while still performing in your job?
To that second question, I realized I didn’t want to travel at all. That traveling made me feel temporarily good because it got me outside of my day to day and I could ignore my reality. The happier I am in my life, the less I want to travel. And now, I want to be home, nest and be present while taking intentional, longer trips.
“choosing means risking…We don’t build trust all at once. We build it with small decisions. In the promises we keep to ourselves. Everytime we choose ourselves….” So beautifully said. 🤍
Thank you for such an authentic share of your journey. ✨
Thank you for your reflection Kathi 🙏
& the Root Meditation was so grounding! I am in awe of you using your voice in so many different ways, literally and metaphorically in this space. YES YES YES!
I’m so glad it was supportive for you!! ✨
Where do I begin? This piece was so rich and full of SO many nuggets of wisdom. You languaged so many experiences for me, and it's truly finding me at the perfect moment.
Pieces that resonated: commitment bringing up fear of making the wrong choice, the insidious ways we try to regain control, the habits we use to distract, the WHOLE piece about BLD, confusion masking fear, and the temptation to have someone(thing) else make choices.
Also, such an important reminder that courageous choices are not made without fear. "I made these decisions from trust and terror."
This one stopped me in my tracks: "I felt I had to exhaust every angle of a problem: try harder, push more, prove myself. Because I had to be right; if I’m not right then I’m wrong. And if that’s true, then I was the problem."
"Wherever you go, your problems come too." feels like the sister reminder of "No matter where I am, I'm me".
"Move slowly but move." Oof YES.
What a thoughtful reflection, thank you for this. I’m glad you found this piece supportive and that it met you at a moment where you needed it 🩷